For the past three weeks my brother-in-law Alex and I have been getting together to write. We do so once a week for perhaps 2 hours. He is writing almost every day, but my writing is usually limited to this 2 hour period. I LOVE it. I have heard it said that we are most like our creator when we create. I don't know if that is true, but I do know the rush of creating something new, something that did not exist until I created it.
I have felt this rush the strongest when a band I was in (Impossiblistic in high school, Kavichi in college) finished playing through for the first time a new song. And I would think, "This song did not exist until just now. In the last 4-5 minutes we have created a new thing." It felt incredible.
Over the years my desire to create has been manifested in different ways: song writing, painting, craft projects, etc. Some things I create are good and some are not. The point for me is not to make something worthy of note, but simply to create. Of course I would like my creations to be good songs, good art, etc. I did manage to paint one giant piece a few years back that I am proud of. However, that is not the point. The point is to let my creative desires loose.
Yesterday, while mowing the yard, I listened to a rap CD I made in college. (Most of the songs were written in high school but I didn't know how to record in a quality way until college.) I wasn't proud of very much of what I heard yesterday. What I was proud of is that I was attempting to create, that I was engaging the artistic side of my brain back then. I don't ever want it to stop. Which is why I am so happy to have these precious 2 hours each week with Alex where we challenge each other to write. If nothing I write ever gets published, oh well. That wasn't the point anyway. The point is to engage in the act of creation and to let the act itself grow me.